When I tell people that I’m moving to Ipoh, inevitably this dreaded question comes up:
“So what are you going to do in Ipoh?”
I’m going to be honest af right now- every time I hear that question, my heart beats faster, my mouth gets drier, and I smile (the type that doesn’t reach the eyes) while I say, “I don’t know yet, I’m still looking”.
Then usually they will give me like a “nevermind you’ll find something” and I’ll reply “yeah…” and just trail off awkwardly.
I don’t know why I’m not out and proud declaring that I’m going to be a full time entrepreneur. For goodness sake, I have a running online business called Kotak Koffee. I’m going to expand the business and make it reach new heights. Now I have more than enough time to dedicate to marketing it, and getting more products in. I could employ someone to help me with the work. Kotak Koffee has so much potential, and Ipoh is damn near perfect to continue Kotak Koffee’s expansion.
So why am I not … confident… about being an entrepreneur?
Never mind, I know the answer. It’s plain ol’ fear.
I’m scared shitless right now. I’ve always been a stable, predictable income kinda girl. I like surety. I love certainty.
Part of me is like, what if you fail?
Shit, what if I fail?